I have decided to fill my blog with short stories that are laying around in that empty head of mine. I hope all enjoy them.

I could feel the darkness creeping up on my mind. The wound that he opened on my head was bleeding profusely. I could feel the blood running down my face and taste it entering the corner of my mouth. I had to put this guy down before I totally blacked out.
I rolled with his blow just enough that the 2x4 he was wielding like a baseball bat had missed my eye but it opened a very deep gouge in my scalp. He had backed off enough to admire his work. This gave me just enough time to shake off the darkness and pull myself together.
I waited for him to approach again. This time I could hear the rocks crunching under his feet as he approached me so I knew he was close without having to look up at him. I made the action of pulling myself to my feet but what I was doing was getting in the starting position like a track runner. I had scooped up a hand full of gravel with my right hand and was letting the blood that was running off of my chin pool in my hand. When I finally raised my head to see where he was, he was getting ready to swing his 2x4 of death. I lunged with my feet, arms out. I used my left arm to block the impeding strike and used my right hand to deliver my concoction of rocks and blood to his eyes.
Now that he was temporarily blinded. I delivered a quick knee to the groin followed by a right jab to the jaw and a left hook to his head. I am hoping that I can put this B.U.B.(Big Ugly Bastard) down before I totally black out and he makes it permanent. He is limping around good but still not out for the count. I can tell he is working his legs under himself to charge. Soon as I figured it out, he was charging like a mad bull. I attempted to sidestep it but he caught me on my left and spun me around. I used the newly created momentum to push him into the nearest wall. With a bone crunching almost horrifying sound he came to a stop. Thank god for 19th century brick.
I checked his pulse to make sure he was still in this timezone. Thankfully he was. I sat down on the ground next to him and proceeded to tell him how much I didn't care for violence, how it didn't get us anywhere, how we could have talked about whatever was bothering him. After I said my piece, I decided to roll him over and find out exactly who he was.
After a quick check of pockets, I found what I was looking for. Antov Publinski was the big fellas name. By the looks of his passport he had entered the country in New York by the way of Hungary. Whatever his problem was, I hope he sleeps it off here in the alley.
I am almost sure this has something to do with Viktor Nomitask, the Hungarian national I had followed to the bar. Only time will tell what Viktor is up too.

Trials and Tribulations

I have been thru some trials and tribulations as of the last few months. To help myself cope with them I have written a guide to myself to help me better understand that I am not alone. These are my views on some of the things I have read lately. This may be a little too much on the bible thumper side but I wanted to get a different view of things. Much of this has come from the Bible, mostly the Book of James.

1. You must remain positive during difficult times.
2. You will be gain strength as you go through difficult times.
3. You must not give up during difficult times, if you want to maintain endurance for the rest of your life.
4. You must seek wisdom from God as you face difficulties in life.
5. When you are facing difficulties, you must without a doubt expect God to guide you through all your situations.
6. You must consider it an honor to have a humbling experience as you live your life for God.
8. You will be rewarded for maintaining your faith through trials and tribulations.
9. Your temptations never comes from God but from your own inner desires.
10. Your sinful desires can lead you to commit wrong choices which can lead to more difficulties and potential death.
11. You are a gift from God through Jesus Christ. He keeps his promises and God wants you to enjoy life as you endure your difficulties.

As long as you live, you will face problems. Some problems will be more severe than others and there will be times when you want to give up. God understands how you feel. You can't choose when you will face problems but God's words will help you deal with your negative situations.

Here are Jesus' expectations of you during difficult times:

1. Remain faithful to the end regardless of the challenges you face
2. Endure through the problems because it will make you stronger instead of weaker.
3. Seek Godly wisdom which gives you the ability to make right choices during troubling times.
4. Embrace the circumstances that cause humility.
5. Remember you are a precious gift from God and you will be given the strength to endure.

Hold on to your faith and do not doubt the promises God has for you. Every day you hear of people facing various kinds of challenges because of crime, earth quakes, tornadoes, floods, famine, diseases but people seem to rise above it. People who love God have extra abilities to rise above natural or unnatural disasters.

You must keep your heart focused on the end of your suffering or challenges. Your joy will be complete as you overcome your situations. Consider life as a temporary gift to live on this earth to accomplish God's will and your reward will be in heaven. Heaven is where you will live an eternity with God. Pray for strength so you will endure to the end of your life on this earth.

A week of first times!

In the last week I have had a handful of first time events and a couple of first time in a long time events that I would like to share.

First time in jail:

I can only describe my night in jail as complete desolation. I spent a little over 24hrs. located in the county jail. In those 24hrs. I experienced a host of feelings, ranging from loneliness to absolute despair. I have never felt so helpless, scared and down right frustrated at not being able to communicate with anyone. I absolutely do not ever want to be in that situation again.

First time realizing that I really do have close friends:

I have always felt that I kept my family and friends at arms length. Never really felt like I had any friends that I would consider close. I have just recently found that not only do I have close friends but I actually have more than one. I read a study not long ago that compared Friendship to Food. We need it to survive. I have never felt that way until my trip to county. I have never had to ask my friends or family to be there for me like I have asked them to in the last few months. I am finding that if I would have let them in a long time ago it probably would have been beneficial to my life.

First time in a long time of running a long distance:

I had the great opportunity to run with an experienced runner last week. It really is odd how the miles just fly by when you have a really good conversation going. We ran 3 miles in what seemed like 5 minutes. I was in better shape than I had originally thought. I now find myself yearning to run again and again. I have hard time figuring out if its the running or the company that makes me want to go back again and again but either way, I am always ready to go.

First time in a long time feeling like a person:

I think I am going to start this one off with a quote:

"If you surround yourself with the good and righteous, they can only raise you up. If you surround yourself with the others, they will drag you down into the doldrums of mediocrity, and they will keep you there, but only as long as you permit it."

That being said, It has been a long long time since I have felt as if I was contributing to society and not just being a member of society. A lot of times I would feel like a follower in life and not a leader. I have always been the type to be first in line to do something new, first in line to do something retarded, first to do something seen as a breakthru. In the last 5 years these things have pretty much became things of the past but with a renewed sense of self worth, I would be surprised if I don't do something really awesome in the next month or so.

I awoke today to find myself finally getting past the point of just saying that I was going to go for a run and finally just doing it. It felt good to feel my feet hitting the pavement once again, the world around just quiet and peaceful as it can be at 5:15 in the a.m. A few dogs barking here and there but still quiet enough to let my thoughts wonder off to a place in my mind long forgotten from the times that I ran before. With only a small goal in place, basically to make it around the block without dying, I still was able to seek memories that I had long forgotten. With a renewed energy today, I think I will try to do two blocks tomorrow and god willing be up too 3 blocks by the end of the week. I find myself sitting at my desk at this very moment yearning to lace up those running shoes, not just to run but to just seek out those memories that are only found when the sound of your shoes hitting the pavement pulls them from the depths of your mind. I sometimes think it is best shown in the movie Forrest Gump when he justs takes off running. In the movie he runs for 3 years, 2 months, 14 days and 16 hours. I can only imagine the amount of things he could think about in that amount of time. I dont see myself going to that extreme to think about things. I do however think that if I would just let my mind wonder off, I would really get more running done.

For now though, Its now time to get back to work and let my mind do the running instead of my legs. До другого дня.

1st post on my 1st Blog!

This being my first post on my first blog, I have no idea what to even write. I guess since my title is called "Life goes on!" I will talk a little bit about the continuation of my life.

Recent events in the last year of my existence have forced me to take a hard look at the life I have lived and the life I want to move forward with. The recent death of my grandmother and shortly thereafter the death of my aunt. Both were huge factors in what I would call a revelation. Grief often closes one off from the world, making it difficult to move forward with life. Death eventually brings rebirth and the possibility for life to emerge. I isolated myself and my heart, unable to comprehend how someone so dear to me could be taken from this earth. This isolation and sadness is temporary, and that I intend to fall in love or experience companionship again.

I think with that all being said, I will call this the end of my first post. I will hope to continue with this blog in the future. I know I have plenty to put on here.